My new hairstyle:)

Sorry for the delay, kind of slow.

HEYY! It feel…

HEYY!  It feels like forever since I’ve blogged. Life is getting better, I guess. I am trying real hard to keep a balance between school stuff and church stuff. It may not be easy but I am pretty impressed on how I am able to juggle both of those at the same time.That includes my CCA, two ‘O’ LEVEL subjects and other nonsensical  stuff I do when I am bored. So proud of myself for being able to handle so many things at one go. If this happen a few years back,I’ll most probably give up.Seriously, I am really lousy at handling too many things at one go.Look at me, I AM SO TINY and fat(sadly!) how can i afford to manage all the things I need to settle at the same time. I am no superhero. I really Thank God for all the support He has given me through my wonderful friends. I really hope to grow in many ways like in terms of academically and spiritually.NOT FAT. 

Honestly, I was…

Honestly, I was damn pissed yesterday. My sister once told me how sad she was when nobody celebrated her birthday for her. So, i took the liberty to plan out a surprise birthday dinner for her but she called me last minute to say she was not able to make it. Thus, I decided to Celebrate Eucharist instead. At that very moment, she called again saying she could make it; but I already changed and was not in a good mood to continue with the plan. Do tell me, if that is my wrong doing to decide not to go? what a waste of my time planning and hoping it will be perfect. 

Anyway, a few days back I had a talk with my friend over the phone. I think I need to decide on the path I want to continue with. I really can’t decide and it is unhealthy not to decide. Its just really really tough especially that I somehow am closer with my classmates now. I just feel so bad sinning over and over again. I am truly sorry, I must try to stop joining in their jokes. I feel so distant with church now, I need to start working on it. 

School is getti…

School is getting better i guess. Nothing much to say about it. A bit of a loner at times but I don’t mind it as much as I used to.Just got to persevere and study hard to get into a university, that ‘s my motivation for coming to school now! well, and I still got friends like SY and all for lunch. With friends around, I really feel that it makes my poly life more interesting. 

Okay, somehow i kinda miss him now. Nic just told me you ask him about me.Saw him once in school.It’s the past, I got to move on. I can do it with God’s help.:)

anyway, i met wanxuan today to study for O levels at NYP. Been a long time since I’ve been there. It was nice, i saw Jonathan and Amirah there. Such a joy to see people who I haven’t seen for a long time.

 

Its the middle …

Its the middle of the first week of school. I really thought I was going to be a loner or stuff but somehow school is fine. I miss siying’s company though:( at least i have two modules with her! I get to see her on tues and wed. Pam is in most of my lecture class too! So, i guess school will be fine. I think it is just me, I feel empty most of the time, I have no idea why. There’s like something missing in me. Hmm… guess I’ll have to find a way to solve this problem or overcome it.

I’m blogging just to tell you that school is fine and I changed perspective of some people in my class. They are really really nice. Seriously I kind of feel bad for judging them base on their appearance and the way they carry themselves. I mean I, myself ain’t perfect too. I bad there’s a bunch of people who hates me for my actions or my looks. Especially back in STC! HAHA.  nights~ 

Headed to town …

Headed to town today with an old friend. seriously, I’ve known her for at least 3/4 of my life. We shop, talk and whatever girls got to do. I enjoyed it. I miss those times when we were younger. Hanging around with both our families at the same time.If only i can turn back the clock and re-live the past once again. I will definitely cherish every tiny bit of it. 

BLESSED EASTER!

Finally, after 40 days of abstaining from the things i heart. It’s over! JESUS RESURRECTED, HE’S NOW  ALIVE AND KICKING! 

So, I’ve been busy the past holy week, I tried to finish up that particular homework but somehow it slipped my mind halfway as the weeks pass. SORRY!  I met up with wanxuan on tues, went ice skating on Wednesday with that bunch of people i went camp with!:D

Thurs, I went for Chrism Eucharist with my mum and her RCIA friends. We were kind of late, so we had to sit outside the church and all we could see was via a projector which wasn’t very clear. Many heads in front of me was blocking my view at the same time. Thus, i was practically clueless on what was happening. At 4pm, headed to church for sedar meal practice, i was involve in serving the wine and bitter herbs. We had Maundy Thursday Eucharist followed by Lenten Vigil the entire night. I was exhausted by the time I reached home. Basically took a quick shower and crashed on my bed. Forced myself up for the 3pm service on Good Friday and helped with the Easter decoration till late. 

On Saturday, went dinner with Chloe. Easter vigil Eucharist was beautiful as always. Watching people getting baptize reminds me that if they are willing to commit themselves to this religion, why am I questioning and doubting that God may not be there. I NEED TO STOP THINKING ABOUT ALL THESE STUFF!  We had a mini celebration after that, dance and talked till bout 2 in the morning. 

EASTER SUNDAYY! celebrated it with my beloved JCs. We cooked and had our dinner together at my house. Some squires came over after that, they joined us too! Not to mentioned, we surprise Germaine with an IceCream Cake as her birthday was closed at hand.  

Before I start …

Before I start doing any nonsensical things today, I shall blog about my weekends. On Saturday I met Joseph to talk about certain issues.Thanks loads anyway! Sorry, you practically had to beg me to talk to you but it was worth it, I guess. There’s still a lot of question left unsolved and it will forever remain a mystery. I’ll just have to keep whatever you told me in my mind and believe myself. Went for lunch together with Judith and Dorothy before heading to the Lentern Journey Thanks JCs <3 for always being there for me.Sorry, I know i have let you all down thousands and millions of time. I’ll try not to. We had EwY later in the evening, Gary and YongKiat came along too!:) I really hope you guys enjoyed it. Had supper and made more flowers for Easter! We, Our Church, The Community accomplished 1500 flowers! YAY! We reached the halfway mark, another 1500 to go!:D 

Sunday, I had my first ever English tuition in my entire life. It was quite fun, honestly. The people there are friendly. Thanks Judith and Francesca for introducing that tuition centre to me! FYI, I FREAKING GOT LOST THERE KAES:( Ended up at sarangoon gardens! But, I eventually found my way back! HAHA! Went to meet my Mum, JoJo and the rest of her friends for lunch at like 3pm. We went to Empire State, It is something like NYNY, but NYNY is still nicer. 

OMGOSHHH, I gotta go prepare and meet SiYing and Gary for lunch! btw, I ain’t working already! KUDOS!

Had an awesome getaway from work on Wednesday. Watched “This Means War” for the second time but with a different bunch of people at the same place. I watched it with Siying, XueYing, YongKiat, Gary and Benjamin. Finally I made friends with people from my polytechnic and i enjoyed their company. I mean I do enjoy people like Nicholas and Jarren, but people like the rest of my class who I usually eat lunch with are not the type of people I like hanging around with. So, be proud of me, I finally found people i can clique to! Back to my outing with them, after the movie, we went to East Coast Park to cycle and LEPAK! lmao. We took jump shots as you can see from that photograph.For dinner, we went to a restaurant at NEX. Chit-Chated, joke around and made fun of her again. HAHA! It seems to be our entertainment or something. Gary drove us home after that, thanks! How sweet right? Oh, and not forgetting our dear photograph, Benjamin! Sadly, he is not in any of this pictures cause he had to sacrifice taking these jump shots for us! Thanks loads, Ben!

The following day, I was bored so i decided to pay SiYing’s area a visit. Who knew the rest of them came to except for Ben. I can finally said I had played arcade games like Time Crisis. I’m seriously a noob at games. I’m not made for playing games i guess, I prefer those artsy bitsy stuff. Oh well, guess I should sleep now it is close to 2am! Nights and Sweet Dreams. Don’t wet your bed! Jokes.

stay strong

I broke the promise I made to God during this period of lent. I feel awfully horrible for doing so and yet I did it. Now to start over again abstaining from the things I said I will do so is tough, but with your help Lord and with the motivation from my beloved JCs. I’ll start all over again so that I will be able to have a better relationship with you.

On a brighter note, I went to church to help make flowers to decorate the church hall for Easter. Honestly it is beautiful! shall upload the pictures during Easter itself! I’m not working tomorrow~ gonna watch a movie and go cycling together with the people I went to camp with. AWESOME MUCH!!:D By the way, I kind of miss my IJ GIRLS truck loads!